Monday, February 26, 2007

Sunshine's Peeking Through

I just wanted to thank all of you who sent me well wishes, and I wanted to let you know that I am doing a lot better. One of my biggest problems is my lack of patience. I'm an "instant gratification" kind of girl, and when I really, really, really want something, I can't stand waiting for it. The longer I'm forced to wait, the more frustrated I get.

I know that by taking the time to get our finances in order before adopting means that we'll not only be able to afford a better house to bring our child home to, but also the adoption costs won't be such a burden to bear.

It's just so hard emotionally when you're ready to be a parent and there's all these obstacles in your way. I think a lot of my "panic" also has to do with the fact that I will be 30 this year, and I really never thought it would take me this long to become a mother. Not that 30 is old, but seeing as how I started TTC when I was 21, it does feel like forever.

Like I said, I always bounce back, and the spring-like weather we've been having has been a real pick-me-up. It's hard to feel down when the sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and you feel a warm breeze upon your skin.

Once again, thank you so much for all of your love and support. It truly means the world to me.


wzgirl said...

Dude. There is a big difference between instant gratification and waiting as long as you have to become a Mom. Patience is a very good - but difficult virtue to hold 24/7.

I get it. XO

erinberry said...

Waiting sucks; it just sucks. This whole experience of infertility and adoption has certainly not made me any more patient, so I know how you feel. I hope that working towards your goal makes you feel better. Spending my time doing things like selling on ebay and organizing things around the house do occupy time and make me feel like I’m accomplishing something while waiting. I hope the time doesn’t go by too slowly for you.

Anonymous said...

Carrying all that extra weight won't be helping any pregnancy chances you might have. In many women carry excess fat cells hormones are skewed to the extent the body just can't support the implantation of a fertilised egg.
It's natures way of favoring fit and healthy parents.

Anonymous said...

"carrying" (not carry). Sorry.