tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9875651.post112370670712592645..comments2024-01-10T23:45:35.611-06:00Comments on Just Gotta Hang On...: Losing My ReligionNatDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13837513913007332900noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9875651.post-1135882349800506932005-12-29T12:52:00.000-06:002005-12-29T12:52:00.000-06:00I know just what you mean. For me, this realizatio...I know just what you mean. For me, this realization happened long before infertility - It started even before puberty.erinberryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14813231433661323654noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9875651.post-1135108036418370202005-12-20T13:47:00.000-06:002005-12-20T13:47:00.000-06:00Morgan Freeman once said in some terrible island m...Morgan Freeman once said in some terrible island movie I was forced to watch with my wife one night that "God is an imaginary friend for grown-ups. Sometimes what you see in front of you is exactly what it seems to be." Although I absolutly hated the movie the words seemed very enlightening to me at the time. <BR/> I think that struggling with ones faith is a natural daily occurance and can only be exponentially confounding during periods of tragic news or loss. I myself have never been much of a religious person. I occationally watch TV and pass the religious stations on the way to the cartoons (for my kids naturally)and pause only long enough to feel myself throwing up in my mouth a bit as I watch the men and women (in clothes that cost more than my first car) stand on lavashly furnished sets pandering for my money so that they can continue to preach "the word" unto the far reaches of the world. As much as I do have an aversion to the greedy, lying, manipulative, judgmental, and hypocritical situation that is organized religion today I still maintain my belief, let me tell you why....<BR/> Let me start by saying that I realize that your situation is different than mine, your life is your own and I respect your opinions and beliefs and would never try to convince you to change them. The story I will tell you is not particularly special or profound and is admittedly explainable outside the realm of the spiritually supernatural. I have no grand revelations to onfold here. Its just one man's story, one man's reason to hold on.<BR/><BR/> When my first son was born it was a very difficult birth which almost cost me the lives of both my wife and my son. At 2am on Dec 6, 1996 I dropped to my knees for what may have been the first time in a quiet corner on the 5th floor at Mercy Hospital in OKC and prayed for the lives of my then critical condition wife and son to be spared. Five gut wrenching days later I was taking both of them home. That's it, thats the story.<BR/>Hardly proof I know, but since then I see my faith in a whole new light. <BR/> I have had two more sons since my first (twins), and both were born profoundly deaf. Yes I prayed for them to be healed and of course they were not. It would be easy for me to turn my back on faith or to see the plight of my 2nd and 3rd sons as some sort of cruel circumstance, but I don't. My sons don't care that they can't hear. All they want to do is play and be happy, just like any other kids.<BR/> I guess what I'm trying to say is I never went looking for God. I knew I would never find him in a church. I don't look to him for security or comfort. What I do is I ask him for help and sometimes things work out and even when they don't things always seem to end up ok. Someday soon you will be in a situation where you will need help. When you have no one else to turn to try giving him another shot.<BR/> I'm not going to tell you that everything happens for a reason because some things are just too unreasonable, but maybe one day the circumstances that bring you the most sadness may be the very reason for the things that bring you the most joy.<BR/> I love your blog btw, your a very good writer.<BR/><BR/>-Phil<BR/>.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9875651.post-1124236480940899122005-08-16T18:54:00.000-05:002005-08-16T18:54:00.000-05:00I also think what you are thinking is totally norm...I also think what you are thinking is totally normal. I have wondered similar things in my life, too. My mother could almost be a nun, so it is hard to hear her constant comments and jabs here and there about religion and God and waiting, etc. I just plug my ears.Sarahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14299499016088919556noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9875651.post-1123780911385543932005-08-11T12:21:00.000-05:002005-08-11T12:21:00.000-05:00I came to a similar place several years ago myself...I came to a similar place several years ago myself. It hurt too much to believe that there was a higher power who let me and others suffer this way.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com